Sep 20, 2010

我並不知道上帝會如何安排我生命的劇本,
但我知道祂會帶領我一步一腳印。
這種內心的平安,是再多的金錢也買不到的。
回顧過去一千多天,上帝確實狼狼地修理了我,
祂給予我這場放逐,無非要我找回自己的心。
心跟上帝早已緊扣,我再也不害怕,再也不膽怯,我要活出真正的自己。
活出生命更高的價值,不要扭曲自己奉迎這個世界。這是我對上帝的承諾。

- 鄭秀文的見證

There lies the difference between someone who knows God,
Someone who loves God and someone romanced by God.
Coming to this city far away from home
Far away from everything that defines me
I'm reconstructed.

But I am not starting from zero
There is a part of me that was and will never be again.
A part of me that is comfortable and safe
But to remain there means no growth.
I've learned a lot about myself
And who I am when I'm stripped of everything I take as my identity.

I am not the valedictorian here.
I do not get the highest grades.
I am not the smartest
I don't always say the right things or get the right answer.
I forgot how to do logarithms.
I only know about 0.1% of the population of my school
I have never BEEN to my whole school.

The people I have learned to be so reliant on
The people who hold me together
Have yet to learn to hold themselves.

Sometimes I wonder am I where I'm supposed to be?
Yet again and again, yes is the answer.
And I realized coming away is the only way to know myself again.

Contrarily to what many people think
Going back has become an escape for me
It means I have not the courage to unveil myself
To know who I really am.

You got to believe it's going to worth it in the end...