I Feel The Fire Burning On Me

Put the gun on my head, I'd still love Him.

So I'm back to school :\ my last year of high school. I am so thankful for the weekend because honestly school is a very draining thing. Anyway this year is off with a very...interesting start. No new students...like what in the world? But congrats MT & Steph for winning the role of class president and chairman! And right now...I'm supposed to be doing my Psychology homework but I guess a break wouldn't hurt :)

Going back to school didn't seem so big of deal...maybe because it never really did feel like I had a summer. That shouldn't sound so bad because this summer was...very very awakening. If I have to sum up the summer in one word, it would be painful. But with pain there comes healing. I am not a sadistic person to myself but I am ever so glad to have gone through what I had to. No doubt I've had sleepless nights. Sleepless nights would be...underrated. But with pain, you run back to that Someone who can make your heart whole again.

*I'm where I need to be*

This is where I want to stay.

So here's a quick update on my senior life :) Please come support if you happen to drop by TST tomorrow! It's a showcase by onestowatch and it should be awesome!

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Hello, it wouldn't hurt to have another update at a time like this. At a time when food isn't ready. Anyway today I had a very interesting talk with mother dearest, about boys. It's almost scary what mothers can sense. "I've always knew he had something for you." or "Doesn't he like a million girls at the same time" or..."I can tell he's the emotional type" Wow, mother. I've developed a new respect for you haha :) Well, moms were young once. Anyway this would be the last update before long...full week of school starting from tomorrow :(

This Is For A Best Friend.

To Carlos Miguel Victoriano Soriano

Hi Miguel, it just hit me that you are leaving in two days. In two days, you'll be part of a new school, new country and a new life. I know I promised not to be emotional and what not. But who can blame me? :) Miguel thank you for 9 years of friendship, next year would be the 10th. If anyone ask me, I can still remember how we became besties. Maybe I'm not pee&undie kind of close with you like your other guy friends (btw I brought you and Mike together you got to admit!) but what we have is like...Piglet and Tigger kind of thing. I'll have to give a whole world of thank you to Edy Wong, who gave me a chance to know you and be there for you. Thus, began our journey :) mehhh we've been through so much together. You've seen the worst side of me...the completely horrible "I want to die" phase of my teenage years haha. There were so many twist and turns in our friendship I don't think anyone would ever understand. With you, I don't mind crying...probably because you'll end up crying with me. Haha remember the phone call when you told me you were leaving...there was more sobbing than talking. Man there is so much good times with you. I still remember you gave me $20 for my birthday once. And I kept all your postcards! :) Thank you for having been a very sweet friend, always there to give a hug, a pat on the back, a thumbs-up. When you get to Prague, please be good. Please be nice but not too nice to the girls...because you know why! Remember all my lectures to you haha! Mehh...I'm going to miss all our talks about guys/girls. We've had so many girl talks that sometimes I forget you're still a guy...the result of living with all females teehee. I hope that stays in you even when you start living with your dad, it's a very unique thing! Bam I don't know what it would be like next year. And YOU! SRC!! -.- that's all I can say. But as any friend would, I wish you all the best next year. Don't forget our many deals, which honestly I don't think you can keep because...well because you're a grown up boy now! =) Did I mention this is a very nice picture of you? :) I even made it...thinner so you look skinnier! haha JOKESSS. you look fine just like that.

Once again, I want to thank you for always being there to listen to me. Thank you for being a leader, a humble servant. One of the things I'll always admire in you is your heart for God. The times you would sit and drink orange juice when everyone else is drinking something else. You might not have a very big body comparing to Channing Tatum...but you have a very big heart. A heart to please Him no matter where you are. Keep that up when you're halfway across the world and I want to see you shine your light all the way from Hong Kong! When I eat ow lam haw I'll think of you. Actually eating will remind me of you because you're fat. I think when we see each other again in 10 years, we'll still be on and on about our fat jokes. Never gets old =D Btw I was looking at the grade9 pictures...back when you were bald. It made me laugh OUT loud. I think it was for Chinese Cinderella or something. Oh yeah, come back every time with a different hairstyle haha! Anyway this is getting too long, if I have anything else to say I will fly an airplane over and tell you. And don't forget about my visit next year =) You will probably meet another Michelle, but none as cool as me. teehee just kidding. Keep in touch aiite? Get a blog, skype, twitter whateverr and EMAIL. take care, keep gyming and live for God. I will miss you =( ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

*people come and go but some will choose to stay right there in your heart*

Romans 8:28 For we know that all things work for the good of those who love Him.

If the Sun Could Have Your Lips

One week till school.

I know this isn't exactly the best way to start a blog...but ehh I'm sorry the truth hurts sometimes (: So before school starts, I'll probably make the most out of my remaining time doing the following few things:

* dance (it's my only form of exercise...haha and believe it or not I feel healthier!)

* finish more than half of my bio20 course blehhh -.-

* shop =)

*see everyone before they leave...if that will ever work out

*visit Stanley

24 hours is just NOT enough for a day. Then again maybe I waste half my day sleeping. Anyway I watched Prom Night last night and it really made me think of my senior banquet in 10 months. Dang, 10 months could pass by so fast. Anyway I don't think I should begin my year thinking about the end of it.

nails are a hassle.

Moving on...I promised adiee I'd dedicate this blog to a random someone. But no =) I think I'll dedicate thise to Miguel instead...who I hate to say is leaving in a few days. Dude I've known you for 10 years. 10 full years. I don't know how I ever survived that. HAHA just kiddingg ♥ I still can't believe you're leaving. But like I promised, I will not make anything emotional =) of you won't stop crying haha! Ehh...all these people leaving is making feel a lil (let's not bother with the AP vocabs) SAD. And honestly going back to school without class09 is going to take awhile to adjust to :\

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I never did came back after my night snack. So here it is, my edit. I'm quite in a reflective mood right now. People can reflect on so many things and never arriving at the same destination. Sometimes for a split second, a flashing moment, two people share a moment of mutual understanding. If neither one does anything, that moment passes by like sand running through your fingers. It's quite sad. If only people have the courage to say what they know. Who's to say "what's yours will be yours"? There's a responsibility to knowing, to feeling and to growing. I can sit around waiting forever. But this is different than waiting for your bus to come. When you wait for your bus, you know it's going to show up. But sometimes...you don't know what life will bring you. Let's just say whatever tomorrow brings, He's approved of it.

*Look Into My Eyes & Hear My Song

He is good, God is good.

I promised a long blog today so here goes...

These past two days might have been the longest two days I've had in awhile. I've made a lot of self discovery and discovered that I can be quite a denial queen. As cliche as it may sound, the truth often hurts. Maybe that's why God placed people in my life who can slap me out of love. I can safely say, because of you I have the courage to speak out. And there are those who are always there to make you smile ((: to these people, i give the greatest gratitude. I'm not going to spill out my life story here and dramatize everything. But sometimes life is a drama and things as lame as two best friends lying, fighting and making up do actually happen. Things get in the way and knock you off your feet, but nothing beats a God-given friendship. All I want to say is that I'm thankful for a friend like you... =S This cannot get anymore cheesier. But I'm thankful, I'm really thankful for each and everyone of you. God gives and God takes away. At the end of the day, there's beauty in ashes.

This didn't end up to be very long...but not everything has to be said.

*And now, after all my searching

After all my questions

I'm gonna call it home

Finish up your act.

*it's a little too late for honesty

it's a Sunday afternoon

Seeing that I'm still new to blogspot, I have the urge to blog again (: it's a Sunday afternoon and I'm home because someone cougheugenecough flopped me (his word). Now we're equal. Anyway I watched G.I. Joe and I'll have to say it's a lot better than it looks, possibly because it's Channing Tatum and Marlon Wayans heh. They were better together and...yes it's still hard to believe that Channing Tatum is married :( Heads up though, this movie makes you really tired afterwards. There is almost nothing soothing in the entire movie...except for Black Eyed Peas' Boom Boom Pow at the end. Which was a little random haha! Anyway I won't spoil it anymore.

Next I have on my list is still Up...I have absolutely no idea why it's always full when I want to watch it. It's not funny because I've been wanting to watch it for so long. Drag Me to Hell doesn't look so appealing...but since it's a horror movie, I'm sure the pain will worth seeing everyone in their kodak moments (: For those of you who don't want to waste money in theatres, I'll suggest Sister's Keeper. That movie is very very powerful, definitely life changing. He's Just Not That Into You is another movie that will keep you awake the whole time. I watched it on my way back from Canada and it kept me alive!

I've been shopping a little too much lately. But, well...it's hard not to when you spend one day in Elements. For some reason, that mall gives you a whole new perspective to Hong Kong. From their new W Hotel, you see the shimmering & glistening side of the city. The hotel, I'll have to say, is breath-taking. How so? I don't know...it's just not a hotel where you walk to the concierge to get your room then take the elevator up just to sleep. It's...worth the time just walking. Have with you an artistic mind though because everything in there is so...abstractly designed. Anyway if you walk a few streets away from all this glamour, you'll arrive at one of the most run-down parts of Hong Kong. From there you might meet some of the poorest people in this city. I passed by them on my way home and I can't help but feel a little...bothered.
The irony of prosperity.

the feeling...hmmm (:

It's funny how we always happen to see things we're not supposed to. Or worse, have them replay in your mind over and over again. I hate it when that happens. It's almost as if you were meant to see those things that break your heart into a million more pieces. Meant to, not supposed to. Haha I'm sorry this is going to be one of those "what the heck is she talking about" blog =P But lately lots of things have been running through my mind and I found myself a little jaded. I can't tell what I'm feeling. A lot of things have happened this summer and I no longer ask why they happened. I'm beginning to see, here & there, the divine purpose behind it. What more can I say? I'm content.

Just a few more weeks =.=

things I got to do before then:

- watch UP

- see Eugene (ugh) haha! I'm kidding I know you're reading this

- fix my strumming

and uhh...I'm outt (:

freedom ride

I just can't stay away from blogs.
I wasn't gonna give into blogspot...but who can blame me ((: I have friends who are constantly showing me their blogs & the temptation adds on. I guess i'm the kind of person who needs a place to let my little world roam free. Well, this is as much as blogging goes tonight. Don't think i'll be sleeping in an hour or two...my biological clock is still messed up.
It just hit me, school's in three weeks...or something like that. And two more weeks left with Miguel. Ugh. I promised I won't make it emotional. Pinky promise (:

*good night, world.

*it's love on a lifeline