孩子: 我的天父，可否讓我好好地談戀愛？
不再流淚，不再傷痛，不再聚合又要分開？
我的天父，我只想要安穩地找個人來愛，
請讓我知道，那個人在不在？

天父：我的孩子，難道您忘記了我就是愛？
學懂愛我，學懂愛您自己，您就懂好好戀愛。
我的孩子，何不嘗試安靜的慢慢去等待。
您就會知道，那個人在不在。
您是否願意相信，每時每刻都在我手裡，

孩子：愛我的主，我願意相信，萬事萬物都在禰的手裡 ，

沒有事情是太早或是太遲。 請教我順服，禰的旨意。

There is no bad timing.

My God turns mourning to dancing.

Why is it everyone get to see you for one last time

And I can't?

這一生最美的祝福，就是能信靠主耶穌，
走在高山深谷，祂會伴我同行，
我知道 這是最美的祝福。

Time is a funny little thing.

Sometimes you wish you can stretch it out

So long that you never reach the end.

Sometimes you wish you can hop across it

Skimming and blurring the scenes.

Regardless of what you want...

Time wouldn't care less - what you want.

It ticks and it tocks on its own

Like the sand in an hourglass

It only goes in one direction.

At times we put things, or people off

Because we would like to think time will wait on us.

We like to plan our life out according to our liking

Yet life again has proven to be unpredictable.

People you plan to have breakfast with in a months time

Might not be there anymore in a month.

People you plan to talk to in two weeks

Might not be able to talk anymore in two weeks.

People you plan to be with in a few days

Might not be there anymore in a few days.

People you plan to call in the morning

Might not be there anymore, the next morning.

Never have I wondered how a person enter heaven.

Do you see glimpses of paradise before you leave?

How do the gates of heaven welcome you?

Hey, are you enjoying it up there?

Do you see me looking up at you?

I'm wearing the bracelet you got me

Everyday.

Because I think it fits perfectly with everything I'm wearing.

It's perfect

Just as you are perfect now.

My sins drag behind me

Like chains on my heart.

I fall before You God

In total surrender...

Why do we believe what we know to be lies?

"August 9th, the beginning of an end."

This was from a commercial on AXN

Only they were referring to the season finale of Lost.

What truth =)

Lately, my cleaning mode has taken over my life.

With exactly three more weeks left,

The sense of urgency hits that I. Must. Clean.

So I went from cleaning my desk, to my room, to my closet

To my inbox.

I have a very bad habit of not deleting something after reading it.

And therefore while going back to my emails and Facebook messages

I came across mails from as old as 6 years ago.

I saw the me when walking to school makes me nervous

When my friends were my life

When life consisted of doing well in school,

Knowing everything that's practically unimportant

And boys.

I saw the me when friends began to disappear

When they confronted me

And the me when I was angry at them for not understanding

The me when I was thankful that they were honest

When I first learned that honesty in friendship is like having your teeth cleaned.

So painful, yet so refreshing, so essential.

I saw the me when I first experienced butterflies

In the tummy.

When I thought falling in love

Was love.

I saw the devastation after giving everything

To sustain that feeling of being in love

Finds that feeling is fleeting.

That burning passion

Will not always burn.

Like every other flame

There are times when

The fire can come

So close to extinguishing.

And when it's out

When the flame is out

What's left is a choice.

That consistent and courageous decision

To extend yourself for another person

For their well-being, their good.

Love, then

It's a choice.

Not everyone will have the courage

To make that choice.

And sometimes, the truth will hurt.

"No life is a waste, the only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone."

I see so much goodness in you.

In your heart, in your hands, in your words.

I hope that someday you'll see

That you are beautiful and perfectly formed.

I hope that someday you will know

That you are immensely loved.

I hope that someday you will be truly happy.

And that you'll accept from Him

What nobody else can give you.

What she cannot provide for you.

You were there when I needed someone

Friend, you've forever left a mark in my life.

"If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes. "

"There are five people you meet in heaven,

Each of us was in your life for a reason.

You may not have known the reason at the time,

and that is what heaven is for.

For understanding your life on earth."

- The Blue Man

I'm currently reading Mitch Albom's The Five People You Meet in Heaven

Reading this in the hospital adds an even thicker layer of meaning to it.

"...There are no random acts. That we are all connected.

One withers, another grows.

Birth and death are part of a whole.

It is why we are drawn to babies

...And to funerals"

One withers, another grows?

Jesus said, "Take care of my sheep"

-John 21

There are several places we like to avoid in life.
One of them is the hospital.
No one wants to be here.
The smell, the coughing, the "white-ness" around...
Everything makes you anxious.

Every sound makes your heart beats faster.

This post is written while sitting in one.
Waiting.

Jesus, help me trust in You.
Calm the storm in me.

My summers have always been about learning how to let go.

Every summer before this was about moving on

Forgiving, bearing, and somehow arriving at the same place again.

This summer though, is a different kind of letting go.

This summer, I wish nothing changes.

I admit, that is something foolish to wish for

But complacency is an easy thing.

And complacency gets you nowhere.

So this summer, I have to let go.

Not of the things that make me unhappy

But of the memories that make me smile.

I have to let go not because someone tells me to move on

But because I know this is finally the time to.

A friend's mom once told me

What's yours will return to you

What's not yours will never be.

To believe this is a leap of faith

Because to believe this

Is to know that the Lord provides

And the Lord oversees,

He holds pieces of my life

And will put them piece by piece together

In his perfect timing.

能為愛戀學習按捺

情信寄進心內
但求能學會倚靠神
愛被馴服過更精采
連地老天荒亦不更改

時間永遠等待
等你情願那天

才去承諾你
無止境那份愛

孤星

在天空裏
有一顆孤獨的星
黑夜裏的旅人
總會頻頻回首
想像著　那是他初次的
初次的　愛戀

"Be happy, young man, while you are young,

And let your heart give you joy in the days of your youth.

Follow the ways of your heart

And whatever your eyes see,

But know that for all these things

God will bring you to judgment.

So then, banish anxiety from your heart

And cast off the troubles of your body,

For youth and vigor are meaningless.

Remember your Creator

In the days of your youth."

Ecclesiastes 11-12

Commitments are hard to make.

They require total trust and complete devotion.

You need to know that the person you are committing to

Is reliable, trustworthy and faithful.

I've come to a conclusion

That every other promises we make

Center on one commitment.

Or should.

Because it is from this commitment

That we learn to be wholly devoted to Someone

Through thick and thin.

From this commitment

We learn that there is no bailing out.

There is no being selfish.

When you completely give yourself

To love, to serve and to follow.

There is no backing out

When this is a lifetime commitment.

“The only reason for time is so that everything doesn't happen at once.”

- Albert Einstein

Some books are best-sellers

Not because the writer writes well.

Simply because they put everything a girl wants

Into a perfectly shaped and moulded guy protagonist.

And everything a guy wants into the girl.

Put the two together and bammm

Best-sellers.

That's why some shows can be so addictive.

You get so into the characters that you wish you were them.

Living their life.

Their fictional life.

Once in a random while

Reality slaps us in the face

Reminding us to snap out of the fantasy world.

Because reality in fact

Is much more exciting.

Reality in fact is very exciting,

When you allow Him to write your story.

Sometimes we try to hard

To reshape our own life after someone else's.

Only to find that

It's not half as good as it seems in the show...

Tonight I rediscovered

My battle scars.

Wounds that I thought were long healed.

Little did I know

It's still fresh and alive

Bleeding and swelling

Infesting my entire being.

Little did I know

That little girl

I hate so much to be

Is still alive.

Anger and rage

Re-erupted.

And I fear tomorrow.

Lover, I am aware of you.

I am aware of your tugging at my heart.

I am aware of your calling.

But Lover, I want more.

I want Your embrace.

I want Your overwhelming affection.

I want intimacy.

I want assurance.

I want security.

I want peace.

Lover, I'm exhausted.

如果

四季可以安排得極為黯淡

如果太陽願意

人生可以安排得極為寂寞

如果愛情願意

我可以永不再出現

如果你願意

除了對你的思念

親愛的朋友 我一無長物

然而 如果你願意

我將立即使思念枯萎 斷落

如果你願意 我將

把每一粒種子都掘起

把每一條河流都切斷

讓荒蕪干涸延伸到無窮遠

今生今世 永不再將你想起

除了 除了在有些個

因落淚而濕潤的夜裡

如果 如果你願意

席慕容《七里香》

What beautiful words.

Walking Down the Memory Lane

My task to pack away commenced today.

Rummaging through my old birthday cards, birthday gifts, letters and notes,

There was an inevitable bittersweet feeling tugging at my heart.

Looking at the pig face that a friend made for me years ago

I can't help but smile at how far we've come.

By the way, very smart in using clay! It's in two pieces now :D

(But don't worry it's in a jewel box)

I love receiving letters.

I love reading what other people wrote.

Beneath each written word is an emotion.

Beneath each letter is a story.

That's why I love letters.

Hundreds of questions go through my head when I read them

What was he feeling?

What was she doing?

Why did he choose this paper?

Why this colored pen?

Where did he write this?

Why did she draw this?

Does he still feel the same?

Does she remember writing this?

Is this promise kept?

Or is this a broken promise?

Sweet because all these are part of our history.

Bitter because all these may no longer be our present.

Friendships.

Level of friendships.

Affections.

I'm glad that living in the midst of the ever-changing

My God is unchanging.

Postcards, apology letters, birthday notes and a simple doodle

They made my high school life.

But there comes the day when I need to put a lid to all these

Ship them away and...

For the lack of better words - move on.

Never forget your yesterday

But don't neglect your tomorrow either.