Blogspot, I feel like I've abandoned you.

With Tumblr, Twitter and may I introduce to you all -

My new diary :)

Oh dear, it's hard to keep up with it all.

But lately, I feel like my thoughts need to be constructed in private.

A Bigger Dream

I took some time to think about my thoughts today

Most revolved around food, midterms, what to do this weekend,

People, and I confess - too much negativity about people.

I don't like what I found.

CED classes have prep me well

Memory verses do come in handy.

Whatever is noble and clean - think upon such things.

What's godly, what's not?

Have you tried running on a treadmill with your eyes closed?

I bet not. I also do not recommend it.

It's a scarring experience.

But to run in a race, you need to have your eyes on a focus

Something to keep you in balance.

Likewise, to run in this race called life -

We need to have our eyes on something.

For some, it's success. They want to go higher and further. They want to be on top of the game.

For some, it's complacency. They like the way things were and there is no heart for adventure.

For some, it's love. Dependency brings comfort and security - all too soon shattered.

For some, it's grudges. We live to show them we're better.

For some, it's simply life. We live for the sake of passing by. We live life like a butterfly, with stages to complete. Graduating, getting married, having kids, earning big money, retiring. And finally dying.

There is no satisfaction because this isn't what we were made for.

We were made to be loved. To be loved is to be beautiful.

We were made to bear upon a badge of beauty on us.

But not what the world defines as beautiful.

Have you ever thought a person was beautiful, but in time that ceases to be so?

For the girls out there, what kind of woman do you want to be?

Take some time and seriously think about the woman in your life - who lives to be a role model?

I have found that those I can look up to might not be the prettiest in the world's eyes

But you can no doubt see beauty emanating from them

That's because the origin, the creator of beauty lives in them.

The beautiful one resides in their hearts -

They can't help but glorify his beauty

They can't help but reveal his grace.

To the woman whom I look up to

I thank God for putting you in my life

That I may know what it means to live a peaceful and quiet life

A life of gentleness and faithfulness.

A life that's beautiful.

A life in which Christ is living in.

I have had three unpublished posts in the span of 3 days

And to find just the right expression for my state of emotions is in fact -

Not very difficult.

Lately it's been "tuck-me-away-in-my-closet" sort of days

Thoughts have been thrown in this lost sea

Visits have been made to reflections.

What's a journey to tread on without looking to see how far we've come?

I gained a better picture of the course I'm steering towards

Or should I say, I've been shown a better picture of the direction I'm heading to.

I've made a visit to my old self

When recklessness was my driver.

A headless chicken runabout without a brain

A headless chicken would be a right comparison.

But recklessness has to do with innocence

When consequence is an unknown factor.

I was a passenger on a highway

With recklessness as my driver.

Do I wish to go on the same path again?

18 and legal in some places, I am an adult.

To say yes is to be stupid.

But there is that little giggly self of me hiding behind the bush

Hoping to run around without my head again.

Back when taking a step forward would not send shocking triggers down my back.

You may say I've become cautious

Why not hop on and see where it takes you?

Dear friend, I am already on my way

And I am not stopping for anything.

One fine day I may see that you would want to go the same way

But until then, this train is not stopping.

Time is not wasted in waiting

Because in fact, we're on our way.

A year ago, the ticking of the clock frightened me.

But now I know the Author of Time.

Godspeed.

This train is not stopping.

You Were Born To Be Loved

你是為了接受主愛被揀選的人

당신은 사랑받기위해 태어난 사람

君は愛されるために生まれた

Just in case you couldn't read one language or another

I have 25% of you understanding that.

You were fearfully and wonderfully made.

"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,

before you were born I set you apart;

I appointed you as a prophet to the nations."

- Jeremiah 1

I needed something green.

Something fresh and alive.