O dream maker, you heart breaker

It's been a long while since I've last blogged.

One difference stands between my last update and this:

I've graduated.

No doubt we all had the time of our life

But no one ever told me how bittersweet this is

Walking past school again

I had this sinking feeling knowing I'm not part of it anymore

Leaving is not the scariest part

Changing is.

We are afraid of changes in life

Afraid that when we come back,

all the world has moved on

and we are stuck at the moment we left.

And perhaps the scariest part of it all

is changes in relationships.

We all want to be irreplaceable

We all like to think friends today are friends forever

But that's not always the case.

Distance and time...something I learned in Physics 20

They stand in our way.

I have 48 days till I leave.

“You never really leave a place or person you love, part of them you take with you, leaving a part of yourself behind.”

Come to my heart in these shattered places.

Healing begins when you seek for the healer.

There is no denying vulnerability.

There is no escaping.

Come in please?

Tired of holding it in,

Tired of holding my head up.

Where is the lifter of my head?

If you're everything you say you are

Come close and hold this breaking heart.

It came to me like a dagger.

I wish I can be with you right now.

I wish we didn't need airplanes to fly.

I wish we didn't have to wait on other people.

I wish I could see you now.

I wish you were never sick.

I wish you could see me graduate.

I wish time could stop.

I wish I was small again.

I wish you could cook like you used to.

I wish you can breathe normally again.

I wish you can scold me like you did.

I wish you were healthy.

I wish I'll never have to say goodbye.

I'm scared.

God, I'm scared.